Is it possible to be just friends with someone you have feelings for? Actually I think the real question is how do I get rid of these feelings. It doesn't even feel real. I just want us to stay friends. I think I have some commitment issues. I always worry that when I marry, I'll eventually get bored and call for a divorce. That's just part of the problem. The other is a world different story. I think I'll have a dog as a partner.
I guess that's what holidays do to you. It's one of those times where I just wanna study all over again. I always knew I would have this wanting-to-go-back-to-studying feeling as the holidays progressed, but I didn't expect it to be this fast. Last time I could be in a world of my own with studying, as nerdy as that sounds. Now I have to think about so many other stuff. My new laptop is gonna come soon (2 weeks, but I can hope for earlier..) and my dad will be carrying it from KL (it will be delivered to somewhere in KL, but by then I'll be in Jakarta) and I just know what he'll be saying: "Why is it so heavy? Why have I never heard of Alienware?"
Sigh.
